2 years now since my wife died. And I forgot on the 10th of August 2007 that it was her anniversary. I was reminded when someone shared with me on the 13th that they had gone to a funeral on the same day of Nickies passing. I must admit to feeling a little different these last few days so I attribute it to that. I pray for Nickie every single day – I cant imagine what it must be like for those who  do not have any understanding of such matters, it must be very difficult for them.

Think of the different levels of existence and the interaction between those levels for example if you have a pet it is not able to realise the love and affection its owner would feel for it. Yes, it would to a certain degree but there is no way that animal has the capacity to understand the feelings in the way that the owner has. I think it’s the same for loved ones who have died, they are actually more intermingled in our world than we think, but we dont have the capacity at this level to fully appreciate it.  Nickie loved butterflies, here in china there are some amazing butterflies in plentiful supply which makes me think of her. I imagine her having conversations with my friends here. I see her having an intense interest and love in her eyes as she speaks to them and taking an interest and joy in discovering who they are and what they think. 

Happy 2^nd Anniversary Nickie!  I love you with all my heart xx